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2006 -- June's journal I love Pete 1st June -- God, must stop watching telly. Am not used to it and it's sucking me in. Can't help it though as Big Brother 7 is providing me with the best entertaining time ever. It's like having friends but I don't have to go out or get a babysitter. Er, it's also stopping me working! Anyway, tonight... quote of the week. Pete (who happens to have Tourette's Syndrome) is having a heart to heart with Richard, and they're gossing about some of the Plastics in the house and Pete goes "Wan***s" and then laughs and says "God, I love it when my Tourettes is in context". Gotta love him! Oh, packed for my hols today. Yes, I know it's 2 days too early but can't do it very well with Evie as she has to try on my whole wardrobe when I open the doors etc. And her passport came through today so we could have just gone abroad for a fraction of the cost after all. Gotta have more faith, me. Anyway, will book hols to Spain with the Jatinder family on my return. Oh, a whole summer of holidays. I know I say holidays, but I actually do end up having major business meetings whe I go to these places, it's all networking, as they say. So hols/meetings. It's all fun in Shazzieland. Hasta luego, amigos Right lovely people. Am off for my hols, I'll be totally unplugged for seven glorious sunny prom strolling days. If you can get to Hove on Sunday, I'd love to see you at the Food of life festie, otherwise, hasta muy pronto. xxx Bright town Me and my puppy on holiday! 10th June -- Oh, just back from Brighton, what a fab week me and Evie had. I think I'd like to keep a lot of it private, as it was really life changing and I came to some great resolutions that'll make Evie have the best life in the world (oh, and me!!!). What a place... totally love it. 4 parties in seven days, the beach, the wide open space, the vibe, the shops (Raw Magic!), the love, the people, the air, the architecture, the everything. Except they don't have sand on the beach, and you can't park anywhere. Except that. Am gonna buy a mansion in Brighton next year, you just wait and see! And it'll have somewhere to but my car. I've started a revolution The festie was also totally fab. There were many raw chocolate stalls, and I'm walking round enjoying the delights on offer then at the end of the day I'm thinking "I need green", so I go to this fab Carribean stall and get a massive piled up plate of seaweed and down it. Lovely. Then over the next few days it dawned on me -- all this raw chocolate that's happening... I really have started a revolution! Thousands and millions of people in the UK are turning onto raw food as a direct result of raw chocolate! For days, I just have been thinking "What if me and David hadn't tried raw chocolate in Maui that time? What if we hadn't written Naked Chocolate? What if we hadn't been touting it to all and sundry for the past three years?" Well, I'm glad we did, did, did, coz the results are more mindblowing than any of us currently know. Seriously, this is the biggest thing to hit the UK's health industry EVER. Wow. AND, on top of that, it seems to have created a wonderful unity amongst all the cacao god slaves that exist in the UK. There's no negativity or jealousy or backbiting -- we're all working together and enjoying decadent chocolate parties galore! Sunscreen Oh, I've also found the best sunscreen ever. It's non-toxic, you can use it time and time again, and it works like a charm. Evie used it all week, and hasn't burned. It's called a hat and a long sleeved shirt. Amazing. I had her naked for about an hour a day, then she was sunscreened. Precious little suntanned happy baby. Full of love 11th June -- You know when you get those days where you just feel full of love? Is it the full moon effect or something? Well, I've felt like that yesterday and today. Me and Evie are having a great time together, and I'm just smiley. Maybe it's the holiday. If it is, I think I'll have more! Am going to Spain soon, then back to Brighton in August for Reuben's birthday. Found my ideal mansion in Brighton on th'internet. 1.4m squid, which is about 1.3m squid more than I have ;-) So I'll be doing some major manifestation work to get it. Help me realise it!!! Am gonna create something so special there... discussed it all with Joe when he came to stay for a few days in my holiday home. It's gonna blow your minds! OK, so manifest, manifest ;-) Hm.. Matt's here seeing Evie, so the sunbathing grass is calling me. Just had The Best Salad In The World. Love Crystal Manna. Marketing co-ordinator required for my company £££ salary according to experience Detox Your World is a small yet rapidly-growing real health company. 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Use the code FFRCNR3 to get £5 off, and your report goes direct to your inbox ready for you to print off. I really rate this one because it doesn't try to sell you a load of supps afterwards, it's all about correcting your nutritional intake. The most exciting thing 12th June -- I'm currently working on the most exciting thing to hit my laptop in years. You know when you just get totally absorbed in something? I love it, I love the flow and the creativity and what comes out of these fingers. I love it! And you're gonna love it, too. But for Evie, the most exciting thing at the moment is her windmill that she got from her holiday. She's had it with her all day and just went to bed with it. Ah, to love a sparkly gold windmill that much you have to sleep with it. Her shoes aren't impressed at being cast aside. Just bought some lovely art for my house. Am half thinking "Don't buy anything, you're gonna move" and I'm half thinking "Buy something, you're here for at least a bit, and those walls are white, girl." So I buy. Love the internet for that, you can just find something, click a bit and it comes to your house. Easy. Just uploaded our holiday pics. Oooh. I wanna go back! Just so happy 13th June -- Hmmm. Have a stack of work to do, but just wanted to share a bit of the happiness I'm feeling right now. You guys are great, you know... when I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed, when Evie was ill, when being single gets me down, you email me, send me so many words of encouragement, and most of us have never met. I love you! So, as a thank you, I just want to write about some happy thoughts that are flowing through me right now. Yeah, maybe it's all down to my much needed holiday, but I do feel changed. All the stuff that I made heavy in my life has lifted. I'm in full-blown manifestation mode with everything, too, which really helps. I can't tell you how it feels when you surround yourself with only positive people, things, events, food and music -- it just pushes the bad stuff out and eventually creates this feeling inside you that makes you want to pop with joy. That's what's going on inside me right now, I'm totally popping with joy. I've even calmed down about the great Church of Tesco organic food reshuffle! And what's caused this, except for my break? Time to be again. Being is sooo important, yet even when we work out how to "be" something comes along (in my case, Evie) to stop us being... or so it seems. I realised on holiday one great big thing (that I suspected anyway)... when you're with your mates who also have kids, you hang out with them, they hang out with the kids and you get your time. The kids come up to you for booboo/nose wipe/food/snuggle every now and then, then you don't see them for an hour. Being alone in a house, as the only raw fooders in the village isn't right -- of course I knew that, I've written about it loads recently. But I thought my answer was to get with a man, and be a normal family. This week in Brighton showed me another way, a really simple way -- to just have like-minded mates to support and love me. God, it's so easy, of course that's why it's taken me a lifetime to figure out! So, rejoice with me, beautiful ones, for I have found the true elixir of life -- friendship that's real, not over the Internet or bookable by appointment only. Ah, must totally manifest that mansion... Love to all on this wonderful eurikaday. Oh yeah, and Skippy should so move down to Brighton, too, coz there's so much gayness there, and he'd so get some love, which he so needs. I'll tell him on Friday when we have lunch. Am sure he'll listen! Tonnes of raw chocolate powder 14th June -- Never again will the UK face a shortage of raw chocolate powder! Remember a few weeks ago, when there was a raw chocolate powder drought? Well, it coincided with a deal we were doing with our man in Peru, the man we get our organic raw cacao nibs from. Because we've given him so much business recently, he's been able to invest in new machinery and more people (great for their economy), and has produced raw chocolate powder, the ONLY raw chocolate powder to be certified organic in the UK. And because we get so much of it, we've managed to signficantly lower the price to you, to just £19.99 per 500g (was £24.95 for 454g). How excited am I? Very, actually. Anyway, we've got a press release on it, if you want the details. Or you can just buy it... ;-) I've worked it out This is why I'm so happy... of course. Being at the festie, seeing all those people making raw chocolate, seeing all those people switched onto raw food because I've helped make raw food sexy and desirable. That's why I'm happy, over the moon and rejoicing with venus... because the past three years of raw chocolate making has come to fruition. Of course it co-incided with babymaking and I was all hidden in a cocoon, so I didn't see the inbetween stage, I just saw the first stages of struggling to get people to believe what I was saying, the creating of Naked Chocolate, and then this explosion before my very eyes last week. No bloody wonder I'm happy. It's like having another baby. Except I didn't put on weight this time ;-) Finally, I can tell you why I'm so excited... 15th June -- After months of gruelling work (really, not gruelling, I've been loving it), I can now reveal that I've been working on six raw chocolate bars. The first one, Temptress, goes into production next week and you can preorder it now. All the others will be slowly revealed over the coming weeks. Oh, how I love it. So does everyone else. Yey, the Raw Chocolate Revolution is rocking... Jose, lost and found Oh, I find Joe, I lose him, I find him, I lose him. One of my bestest friends, he's now going away for a year. He's a superstar, a real treasure who I'll always love. Am looking forward to finding him again next year. We're aiming to open up a raw poetry bar in Brighton in two years time! God, do I ever stop!!!??? Good luck Jose, and see ya on the other side, hombre magnifico! I made up a silly verse for him a while ago: "Jose, Jose, like a lovely posey of flowers when it showers, jose, you're my chosey friend that doesn't bend that opens til the end, jose, jose, a lovely little posey". Probably doesn't make much sense outside the Jose/Shazzie circle of being. Does it? Viva Espana Gonna book hol with Jatinder et al this week. Yey!!! Actually it's on a bit of business, but I know that you should always mix business with pleasure, regardless of what others may say. "Never mix business with pleasure?" how cooked is that? I was born with a plastic spoon in my mouth 16th June -- So the song goes... For some reason, I've had a few emails of late from people going "how do you manifest all this stuff in your life? How did you do it? Write a book on it..." etc. Well, in one of the books that I'm currently writing, I am touching on that whole thing, but it's part of the bigger picture, of living your dream, of being in your flow, and of never accepting that your previous circumstances can affect your present and your future. I'm just a girl from a council house in Hull. I've often joked that by rights I should be working in a chippy going "Do you want scraps with that, love?" The fact is, that I have always been passionate about a few things: design, health and veganism. For all my adult life, I've relentlessly pursued all three of those things. I spent seven years at college! My parents were like "Will she ever get a job?" I used to say to my mum "I'm never gonna work in an office, it's like being dead." She'd go "I bet you do, it's all that's around". And I did for ten years, and I disliked most of that time. I frequently cried in the loos as my soul was screaming "I shouldn't be here!" I wanted to hang out in trees and think and draw, but I'd chained myself to a job. My work was great, I loved that, I designed and made software usable, and was one of the first ever web designers. It was the atmosphere I couldn't handle. Air conditioning!!! Eugh! So going raw altered me significantly, as I've journalled here for the last six years. I started my own business, took time out in Spain, travelled to many countries doing talks, wrote three books and had a baby... Yeah, I'm also slightly obsessive. Maybe that's it, passion and obsession probably go hand in hand, it can be a tricky one to deal with sometimes -- I have to be very careful where I focus my attention. Yet when I focus it on positive things (which over the years I've conditioned myself to do with affirmations and learning to love myself), I get in my own personal flow and I create. And that's when the magic happens. There are many books on flow, which are great, but you don't need to read about it. Just think about the times when you "lose yourself", what are you doing at that time? Making food, driving, gardening, writing? Really start to take notice, because it's in those moments that you flow and are fully connected. This, my loves, is how life should *always* feel, if we're getting it right. Build upon this, and you'll soon be creating the life that's perfect for you. So that's now how I mostly live my life. I decide what I like to do, and I do it, and when I do that, the Universe rewards me by making me feel happy and by sending me gifts of moneyness to enable me to do more of what I love, coz money is just an energy that you can attract easily when you're flowing. And I also do the opposite, I work out what I really don't want, and get someone else to do it!! Hence my two cleaners and my other employees. I just do the stuff that's good for me, and they do the stuff that's good for them. My employees love the jobs they have, but I couldn't do any of them. And that brings me to my final point... trust... you have to TRUST. This was probably the most difficult thing for me to do because I'd allowed people to violate me in the past. That comes from lack of self-love. So getting into self-love enables me to now trust. It works because if you love yourself enough you won't allow anyone to abuse you, they won't be able to -- energetically it will be impossible for them. And I'm talking about people on all levels, partners, friends, business colleagues, family members, the works. Love and trust yourself, and only ever get love and trust back. Oh yeah, and don't think for one second that it ever ends, it's not like you get to a point where you go "I've manifested enough now, I can rest." coz the Universe gives you more and more stuff to deal with. I'm constantly up against it and I invite it in like "bring it on, Universe", coz I know I can handle anything, so that's what I get! Here endeth The World According To Shazzie. Now, am off for a v long lunch with Swizzie Woo Woo (when she wakes up) and Skippy. We're gonna enjoy the sun, manwatch and eat Temptress! 22:22 17th June -- I love symmetrical times. Always pray for world peace when I see it, too. Just a quickie, before I sidle into bed next to my poppet. Had a great day yesterday... another 7 hour lunch with Skippy and Evie. Don't know how we do it. Nagged him to move to Brighton, and he's like "well, I have to do something". I told him about Kemptown, where a load of gayness happens and he's like "Camp town", apparently he knows all about it, off of his gay thingbox web site that he's on. Anyway, then we met his brother who's just got a book deal so we're all sitting round as authors/artists and going on about the kind of thing authors/artists go on about. I thought just for a moment, that if there was more of this here, I'd not feel like moving. But since Jessie moved into the country, I think Skippy's the only person I spend a lot of time with (apart from Evie, who did a great white painting the other day), and there's only so much author/artist talk you can have with one mate. Anyway, we're gonna go for a day trip to Brighton in a couple of weeks and go to a gay bar. We'll get t-shirts made up, his will say "I'm not the father or the boyfriend" and mine will say "I'm single even though I have a baby". Or something. And, me and my Becky are going on a Thelma and Louise style road trip, but with a happy ending. Yet, as Becks pointed out, still with Brad Pitt. Oh yes. Er, we're actually going to the Funky Raw festival. But the former sounds groovier and a bit more mysterious. And of course my mini-me will be there. Oh, her first camping trip. How do I bath her? Your six month warning I made a big decision today. Am gonna stop my journal at the end of this year. I know I've done it before and you've nagged me to continue, but this time I truly mean it. It'll be a whole seven year journey that I've documented... surely enough for anyone???? I just want a bit of privacy, and I want the same for Evie, too. As a baby, it's not really an issue, but I don't want her to be brought up in the spotlight. I'll find ways of keeping you up to date with my life, but it'll be not so detailed. I think my cathartic moments are over ;-) Reflective 19th June -- Am feeling in a quiet reflective mood today. Evie had me up most of the night and sleep deprivation activates a good bit of right brainness, doesn't it ;-) Ta for your emails about the journal ending, but do remember that you have six months before it happens, I wouldn't dare just remove it. I think I'll put as the last words "And they all lived happily ever after" coz that's what happens in all Evie's stories so it must be true. Nice to have a happily ever after ending, anyway. You seem to like the idea of Temptress, we're swamped with pre-orders. I've just got one left of my last prototype batch, me and Evie will suitably fight over it tomorrow no doubt. Can't get enough seaweed at the moment, it's in everything I eat (except my smoothies, which have algae in them!). Am totally loving it. Got some work to do but am more inclined to sleep right now. Might skive off tonight. V busy week coming up, my parents have decided to have a 40th wedding anniversary at the weekend so we're all congregating at their house. We have to wear red (ruby wedding), and they're having a barbie with meat on it. Eugh, I was a bit shocked as parents don't eat meat, but they're like "It's not fair on the others if there's no meat", errrr... what can I do? I told mutha to at least make sure it was downwind. Not like the parties I went to on holiday... but will stop going on and on and on about my holiday now! Will make a lovely raw cake and some choccies for the occasion. Right... am off to ketchup on some sleep... Night night to you all xxx zzz Enough, guys (thanks) 21st June -- OK, you can all stop emailing us Paul Nison's writings about raw cacao -- we've been sent it so many times today ;-) All his concerns are fully addressed in Naked Chocolate... in short, yes there are dead animals in "standard chocolate bars", but they're not in raw cacao beans or nibs (you'd see them) or powder. Neither are they in our bars. Animals are attracted to cacao (coz they *know*), and mass-manufacturing causes them to be part of the bars, the same as bread and other mass manufactured goods. Another reason to eat raw chocolate! The chemical stuff is all addressed in our book, too... basically cooked chemicals are very different to raw ones... that's the whole foundation of the raw food diet. Paul's a lovely guy, and we don't all have to agree on everything. Raw cacao works for me, it works for David, it works for thousands and maybe millions of people. It's fine, too that other people feel it doesn't work for them. Examplying... a high fruit diet doesn't work for me, I'm not saying it's wrong -- know what I mean? Recognise the difference, give thanks we ain't the same, variety's the spice of life, hey fella what's your name? (words off of Big Audio Dynamite). Peace. Happy solstice 21st June -- Hope you all have a great solstice. Am gonna do a 1 minute meditation at 5pm tonight for those who care to join me ;-) Yes, I'm still here 28th June -- Oh, you guys... I went away for a week to Muth's and Fath's for their ruby wedding anniversary, and I've had so many calls and mails going "Shaz, are you OK? You've not written anything." Can't reply to all of them yet, so if you're reading this, stop fretting. Normal service will be resumed soon. Just after I've cleaned the fridge, put the shopping away, and dealt with a load of urgent work. Love, though. Love to all of you. Me and Evie have become eternal ecstatic beings since last week... more laters. Funky Raw Festival August 8 - 13 2006, Helston, Cornwall A camping festival where you can relax and enjoy yourself and learn about raw food and a healthy lifestyle. Early bird tickets available until July 9th: Adult £75, Concession £40, Child 14-18 £18, Children under 14 free with paying adult. Qi gong, Tai Chi, Yoga, Chanting, Raw Food Preparation demos, Natural Skincare making and Wild Food Walks are some of the activities we have planned for you. There will also be a sauna, massage and raw cafes including the Festival of Life raw vegan cafe and 'Magic Café' for Consciousness Cuisine - Kate with her famous magic chocolate, cakes, puddings and superfoods (vegan) and Holly preparing a variety of delicious chocolate puddings, kefir, cheesecake, lasagne, pizza etc (all raw, vegetarian and healthy!) We'll also have activities for kids including face painting and Acrobalance (stilts, tightrope, rola-bola and acrobatics, fun for adults too!) In the evenings we'll have various entertainment including an open mic night and the following bands and DJs: Macka Ting - Featuring: I-Lodica; Fireocious; The unity sisters and Zagu Zarr. 12 piece roots rockers August - positive summer vibes with funky and soulful august crew Cathie (Singer/Songwriter) DJ's: Emma Turtle - Tribal House DJ Crusty - Reggae ...more to be confirmed More info and tickets on the website www.funkyraw.com/festival | rob@funkyraw.com | 0845 003 9515. 29th June -- Yeah, I'll be at the festie, with Evie and hopefully with my Becky!!! Hope to hang out with you there... So, where did the past week go? I dunno, it's not under my sofa... but as I was looking for it, I found Joe under there! "Joe!", I exclaimed "Why aren't you on your year's jaunt?" "Well, Shazzie, I just had to come and stay with you for a couple of weeks before I go". So here Joe is, so really don't expect any sense at all out of me for the next couple of weeks coz we'll be hanging out with Evie, sunbathing and laughing about toenails and thing. Highlight of the past week: Mum and dad's party. All the ladies had to wear red (auntie Elaine cheated by just having a red bag and nails, oooh, the shame). Mum was showing off her now very nearly completed extension on her bungalow. She's got a cupboard-under-the-stairs for the first time in twenty years. You need one, even though there are no stairs, you need a cupboard-under-the-stairs to put your shoes and coats in. And now she's got one. "This is me cupboard-under-the-stairs" she prouded to her darts team, her rellies and the local lads. I said she needs to paint a trompe d oeil in there, of stair planks, plywood and the number 57 in pencil, coz there's always an number 57 in pencil on the back of stairs, you just look. Anyway... out of the cupboard, me and Jen ended up in matching clothes, v sisterly of us, and Evie hung out with all my cousins' kids. I nattered and nattered to my Becky who looked stunning and guess what? Hey la, hey la, my Becky's back! Ooooh. I knew Becks wouldn't desert me for long, now she's desserting me instead! Yeah, Becks has just returned to my company as the official chocolatier. This is actually all thanks to you guys as Temptress has been flying off the shelves so quick we needed extra staff in an instant. Glad my manifestation skills are sharp at the mo ;-) Welcome back, Beckster, missed you! Our angel And I got to spend a bit of time with my new girl Angel, which was great. Not really hung out with her before, so we had some laffs and stuff. She's v funny, and pokes at my dad with her ruler. Is that allowed? Ah, mi papa es tu papa, supongo... Yes, and she actually does just get called Angel now, it's even her email addy. Bless. Note to mates: still way behind on emails... pls bear with me... Jatinder -- pls tell D if he wants to come over any time tomorrow -- Friday -- it'd be great. Will ring you when I get a sec, baby. Hope he's still in the UK... Next

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