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2004 -- January's snippets Wow. 2004 is here! Feel great this morning. Haven't had morning (all day) sickness for 4 days now. I'd been having a bit of ginger tea, and it curbed it a bit. But then I was drawn to having a pint of it. Once I'd had that, I had no more sickness symptoms. Great, considering when I was going on about it to my mum she said she puked constantly when she was having me, for the whole 9 months! So we went to Bov and Chrissie's house for New Year, which is quite customary. Had a wonderful time, and saw the New Year in with about 30 of my friends, and Matt. I forgot to say happy New Year to the baby until Jojo did it. Then I did it, too. Met a lovely vegan woman called Julia, who runs a massive veggie and vegan group down in Brighton. She's Bov's cousin, and we've been at the same party before, but never met for some reason. Anyway, had a great natter with her. She also works closely with the Vegan Society and all that. Said loads of people she knows love my book. That's nice! And when people say something about me, she goes "Oh, she's my cousin's mate" and she said now she can go "I know her". Well, I know Julia, too. She also does catering, and the food she made for this party was stunning. Fab. Anyway, am going to have a day off, visit Lisa and then say goodbye to Matt for a bit as he's got to go to work tomorrow. Hm, means I'll be able to go back to the gym. Yeah!! 3rd January -- Cor, just slept for a massive 9 hours. Making babies does take it out of you! Had a bit of a headache last night, and I've only ever had about five of them in my life, I'm just not a headache person. So maybe everyone's flu was trying to get to me. Ha. No chance! Anyway, me and Tiny are going to go to the gym in a minute, to try to stop me looking five months pregnant. You know, me and Matt think it might be twins. I've got twins on both sides of my family, and just one baby shouldn't make me this big this soon. I'm only two months, and you shouldn't be able to notice it. Yeah right. It's either twins or an even larger-than-life Leo than normal, and just wants to go "I'm here, everyone. Look at me!" So yesterday I ate a tonne of fruit and juice with Pure Synergy and didn't have any weird cravings for anything. Glad of that. Must go to Tesco today as I've got two manky bananas in and a few oranges. I'll have to stop off at my fruit shop to order a box of oranges. I get those delivered, as I get through so many of them. Think that's a legacy from living in Spain. Oranges everywhere. Oh, something else about being pregnant. Everything smells funny. I'm going "My house stinks" and everyone else is going "No it doesn't" and I'm scrubbing everything trying to get the smell off. All your senses are heightened -- probably so you know danger is imminent quicker than normal because little Tinys can't cope with it. Eugh. It's driving me bonkers. Couldn't sleep the other night because of it! Right. Hope you're having a beautiful New Year. I am, and am v excited as it unfolds already. Sending you lots of love...xxx Me, Mum and Dad at my house in the twilight zone. Mother: "I don't think you look as pretty with dark hair." My little Tiny! Isn't he so fab??? He jumped when I got all hysterical, and waved at us. Probably going "Oh, mother. You're showing me up"...   4th January -- Got my nesting head on, and about time too. House just can never stay tidy for more than five seconds. Today I scrubbed my bedroom. Never cleaned it so much (or bottomed it as Jood would say!). Sprayed a tea tree solution on all my clothes in the wardrobe, too. Whatever that smell is, it's driving me bonkers. Must say, it smells lovely now. Even though no-one could smell anything apart from me. The joys of "pregnancy nose". Decided to bottom one room a day (probably every other day knowing me!). I have the energy to do it and get all into it, and then half way through something tells me to stop. Love this pregnancy instinct. Great excuse to lie back a bit. Felt the baby loads today. How do people say you don't feel anything until it kicks? My whole womb area feels big and different. Blimey, people must be so desensitised. Apparently, my womb is now the size of an orange. Not sure what it was before. A little pear, maybe? So if an organ grows that quick inside you, of course you should be able to feel it, shouldn't you? It doesn't feel like pain or anything, it just feels different. Almost like a really tiny bit of bruising, but not sore. Anyway, glad I can sense this stuff. Makes it feel much more real. Ah, no morning sickness again today. Hopefully, I've seen the last of that. Think the big ginger thing helped, plus eating very little fat, and very simple food in small portions lots of times a day. Oh, also eat an apple or something before bed -- that really helps. 9th January -- Matt's b.day today! Am supposed to be taking him out somewhere lovely, but to be honest am really tired. Had a hard few days. Started bleeding, and obviously wondered what was going on. Had a scan to see if Tiny was OK. Went hysterical when I saw him. Poor scanner woman couldn't keep the scanner on me as I was all over the place and crying. Wow. Saw his heart beat and everything. So the docs don't know why I've been bleeding, and have told me to rest. So that's what I'm doing, resting. And resting makes me tired. So that's what I'm being. Tired. Will have to get a wriggle on if I'm to take Matt out tonight. The wonder of pregnancy hormones. Matt's no longer having doubts that I'm pregnant. Not because of the scan (that'd be proof enough), but because I've totally altered and am very touchy and emotional. Being "a different person" isn't always a good thing when you liked who you were before! Hopefully now I've had the scan I'll stop biting his head off, eh! Still can't get over the fact that there's a person in my tummy. Not me, not Matt, but a totally unique other being. Cor. Isn't that marvellous?? 14th January -- Wow, didn't bleed yesterday for the first time in a week. Hope that carries on, then I'll be able to go to the gym a bit. I've turned into a beached whale! Luckily, I'm doing a clothes-swap with Lisa. She came over tonight with two black bags full of size 12s and maternity clothes. I gave her some of my size 8s that I can no longer fit into (already!). On Sunday, me and Matt went shopping to get me some stretchy clothes, but I couldn't find any that I liked so got a bit upset. Ended up buying 3 lots of jogging bottoms. I look like Waynetta Slob. Am going to book a massage to feel a bit better about my body. Am sure I'll feel OK in a bit, it's just having laid on the settee and in bed taking it easy for a week and having the appetite of a horse has made me feel all blobby and wobbly. I just want a bump, I don't want all that extra thigh fat that I'm prone to. I told Matt he has to tell me I look gorgeous. That's what the books say men have to say to their pregnant women. Just put 21 new products on the web site. Finally got angstrom minerals (ionic minerals) here in the UK. Am v pleased, as they've been great for me. I don't go anywhere without them! New juicers are also doing well. Jood bought one and is so thrilled with it! Bless her! Played my Awahoshi CD last night over and over, as I had a headache in one eye. I don't get headaches! Jessie came over and nattered for ages, but as ever it just seemed like five minutes. It was great as I usually fall asleep as we're talking, but I wasn't too tired last night. Then when she left I rang Matt for a natter and almost fell asleep on the phone. Slept til about 10 this morning, so was sleeping headache off. Great. Felt much better today, but a bit cloudy still. Am sure there's something really toxic in my house, my eyes sting when I'm here, and they don't when I'm elsewhere... Wonder what it is. I think it's my new carpet. Eugh. Keep opening windows. Cor, it even snowed today!!! Got v excited about that and told Tiny all about snow. Not sure he'll remember his first snow experience, though. Name our baby!!! Now -- me and Matt can't agree on a name for our little un. I was all excited at calling him Leo Maximus, but Matt'll have none of it!! So he suggested I asked you guys! If you name my baby and we use your suggestion, I'll send you a very special pressie, how about that? So, suggestions for boy names to xxx please. We have girl's names, and also think it'll be a boy, so we're not looking for girl names! I'll run this up until August, when Tiny's due. Hope you can help!!! 16th January -- Aw, thank you! We've had some fab suggestions for baby names. We've even semi-agreed on one, if we can't find one that is more fitting. Not saying what it is yet, though. And we want lots more suggestions. It ain't over til August! Had meeting with bank manager yesterday. He was v pleased with progress of my business. And that's all thanks to you guys. I love you!!! 21st January -- Toby's here helping me with recipes. I just can't eat this food all on my own! Oh, it's only two days to my birthday! I'll be 35 -- that's in a higher-risk category for having babies. Something else for my mum to worry about, no doubt. Speaking of mum. Bless her. She's got E-Coli! She doesn't even eat meat, so must have caught it from some cross-contamination thing. Bless her indeed. No wonder she's felt so ill. Anyway, Matt's taking me to the seaside for my birthday. I can't tell you how much I want to be by water right now. Love it. Keep thinking about buying a house by the sea, but might not do that for a few years. We'll sea! Tee hee. 23rd January -- My birthday!! I forgot when I woke up, just got excited about going to the seaside. Then Matt goes "Happy birthday, honey". Aw. We went out for a meal last night. Hadn't seen each other for about 10 days, so we had lots to natter about. Oh, also went to the gym yesterday. Midwife said I can swim now, but to leave gym stuff for another week. Anyway, pool was freezing. It's been cold since Christmas, so wasn't pleased that it wasn't mended. Made my bottom lip shiver when swimming. Did I mention the whole midwife thing? Oh, didn't. Well, she came over on Monday, nice lady, but will be on holiday when I give birth. Can't understand why they've given me a midwife who won't be helping me on the day that it matters. Might talk to them about that. Anyway, they're all v pro-homebirth women. They love it, so she said. Funny when you think elsewhere in the country "first-timers" are told to get thee to hozzie "just to be on the safe side". She also couldn't quite get to grips with the fact that I don't eat tofu ;-) Very funny, that. We discussed the pros and cons of a 20 week scan. Still haven't decided on that. Think I won't go for it, though. Picture courtesy of and © copyright Babyzone.com Hey, we need more baby names... We've had loads of suggestions, but are still looking for the one that hits us between the eyes. I still want to call him Leo Maximus. I think I might when no-one else is around! OK, am off to enjoy being a lady of leisure for the day. Hope you all have great days, too -- whether it's your b.day or not... Much love xxx 27th January -- Ah, just had lovely weekend over at Matt's. Come home to the biggest stack of work ever, so this is short and sweet. Just really wanted to put a picture up of what Tiny looks like now. Ahhh.... Next

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