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2002 -- November's snippets This is kind of irrelevant now, as I'm in the UK. Must alter it to something like UK is OK but would be better if the clouds went away. A bit long, that, isn't it? Monday 4th November -- This is already such a cracking month! A couple of days ago I was filmed for a telly programme all about dieting. I can't give too much away right now, but look out for in in the UK in January. Very exciting. And not only that, Kazzie, Pete and baby Luke are going to be sitting on Lorraine Kelly's sofa next to doc Hillary Jones on Tuesday morning -- so we're all taking raw food to prime time TV! About time, too. Make sure you set your vids to capture the beautifully new raw family from 8.30, on ITV this coming Tuesday. Other news... Oh, life is just so great right now. I've been involving myself in some CDs which help you alter habits, thinking patterns, addictions as well as help you realise your spiritual awareness. This is going to be the next big thing -- look out for them on Detox Your World very soon. Can't wait to get selling them! It's recommended that you play them for 30 days, but by day 3 I was already thinking and active totally different. I'm sure these are going to help so many people -- especially the habits and addictions ones. Imagine if you're having trouble freeing yourself from the prison known as pasta and bread -- just play these CDs and it stops! If I hadn't experienced it I certainly wouldn't think it could be so simple, but it is. Wow. Went to the Brian Clement event yesterday -- well, was helping Fresh out, doing my bit for society! It was fascinating, and he brought some interesting new information for us. There's a whole load of new stuff on cellular memory which fits right in with how we raw fooders experience stuff. Apparently (here's the Shazziefied version), all cells which are dying communicate all their information into new cells which are being born via hormonal messages. This information isn't only what the last cell experienced, but what all cells before it experienced. When you then look at that historically, it contains the information of our ancestors, and further, it contains information about creation, the big bang, and whatever was before it. And that's in all our cells. And that, my loves, is why we can see beyond our humanism when we are spiritually aware. Isn't it lovely that it all makes sense on a physical level? We're not bonkers after all!! I got up yesterday morning at 5.30 coz I was staying at Joe's and Jade lives there. She's an Astanga teacher, so I took advantage and had a lesson with Joe. I'm going to manifest an Astanga teacher in Cambridge. Anyone know of one? It's all a bit silly, the way they hang round in packs in London, yet you'd get a prize lolly if you spotted one past the M11 turn off. Right, I'm manifesting. Will keep you informed. OK, today I'm writing my book. It has to be finished very soon. I am finishing it very soon! Ah, it's finished (that's the Buddhist way, but if I thought like that I wouldn't do it and then loads of people would cry or something). So, I'll bid you farewell, and make sure you have a gorgeous day. Open your windows and let some life in! Muchos besos, amigos... Saturday 9th November -- Aw, am feeling very melancholic today, as I was yesterday. All to do with me and Fernando. We're splitting up, for real. Blimey, it sometimes feels like I'll never get it right with a man. I give my all in relationships, but I suppose that can't make up for the massive differences. Even our love couldn't do that. So, it's adios España y bienvenido Inglaterra. Well, my plan is to get stuck into finishing the book (so close), and the web site, and then maybe some time next year I'll have a word with the Universe and ask her everso nicely if I can please have a knight in shining armour to play with. Hope Fernando finds someone lovely, too. Well, that's kind of overshadowed my week, and so I've been wanting to feel numb. That's pretty impossible when you're raw, there's no escaping yourself -- no evasion. But... I did a 2 and a half hour yoga class and then Tony (from NFL) came over one night as he's in the UK and we nattered until about 4am. That cheered me up. Not that I'm sad, I'm just very reflective. And as two people have already mentioned, I'm reclaiming myself. I have to say, I did get a bit lost out there in Spain. My sense of direction deserves a medal for that interesting life-turn! But, as I like my own company, I don't feel as alone as I did when I was in Spain, so this is a great improvement. Went to Arjuna today to get a load of food. It's a wholefood co-operative on Mill Road. I passed this veggie restaurant with an unpronounceable name on the way there and stopped in to have a smoothie, as I felt a bit week through lack of food this week (emotions made my tummy go funny). Anyway, I had mango, OJ, spirulina and banana -- it was very yummy. I think I might make it a weekly habit. It was Saturday morning and there was no traffic. Ah, Arjuna -- I've always loved going there, but parking's a bit out of the way. Lots of fresh organic stuff, from mushrooms, avocados and mangoes to still-growing sunflower greens. Maybe I could loiter around there to find a gorgeous-yet-conscientious man? Oh, not yet, I mean, but when I'm actually looking. Blimey, no, not yet. I can't even keep my house clean I'm so buried in my book. Hm, maybe I could find a man who likes cleaning. No! Stop it, Shazzie! Wow, are any of us cut out to be so alone? Oh, the other day I'd had enough. I woke up at 6, worked for 4 hours and then went on strike. I got a video out at my local shop. I asked if I had to be a member (I've only just got my telly), and they asked if I lived in the village, so I said I did, and they said that I don't need to be a member. Blimey, that's trusting, no ID check or anything. Nice, that. It felt good to be trusted. What if everyone started doing that? I wonder what'd happen? Anyway, I watched Seven years in Tibet with Brad Pitt. Now, if he wasn't happily married... he's a lovely bloke, isn't he? Why aren't there more like that? What's happened to men? Well, Fernando is sexy, I suppose that's not quite enough, is it? Anyway, it was such a moving film, I didn't know it was a true story. I think I had some past life memories come back to me, as I was feeling so caught up in the Tibet/China thing. I felt such empathy with them. Now, I have been told by an astrologer that I was an initiate in my last life, so maybe I was a Tibetan Monk? Maybe that's why I like the Tibetan Rejuvenation Rites? Ah, who knows. All I know is it was a lovely film -- very warming to my soul. Well, that about wraps up the last week. A time of change and transformation for me and Fernando, and maybe you, too. The new moon did well. Noche noche, flores. Wednesday 13th November-- Wow, life feels so surreal this week. I've been very good to myself and taken all work pressure off for a while until I get over this Fernando thing. It takes time, though, and I'm appreciating the process. I also know I've opened my heart to someone who I don't yet know, which is like waiting for another episode of Corrie, but more pulse-racing. Ah, who knows what will happen. I'm happy that I managed to stay out of that bad-for-me place in Spain enough to come to my senses, though I do realise that we had so much love together, and that's not something you find every day. So this week, I'm doing as little as possible. Still waking up early, about 6.30, and appetite is very suppressed, but each day is getting easier emotionally, and I know it won't belong until I'm bouncing again. Oh, found out that there's a girl called "Vicky" imitating me on the web somewhere. So to Vicky: Try getting your own personality, it's not that attractive pretending to be someone else. I'm sure people will like you more if you are just you. It's more unique than pretending to be me, I'm sure. Friday 29th November -- Hm. Sorry I've not written for a while. I was integrating all those changes I've just been through, then decided to go to Spain to try to make another go of it with Fernando. Well, it didn't work out, and I've just come back to a leak in my house! After travelling 7 hours I didn't need that! All my wall's wet down the stairs, and I've already got an insurance claim going through for the damage my tenants did. Wonder why my house is crying? Anyway, apart from the relationship thing not working out, I had a fab time in Spain. I went to Malaga and treated myself to a big slap up meal (slap up salad... hmm!) at a restaurant on the beach. It was so warm, not like this time last year, when I was nearly dead from coldness! Managed to sunbathe for 3 of the 6 days which felt wonderful. Yesterday I met Pilar for lunch, and we went to a veggie restaurant. I had the same as I would anywhere, but it was made in a meat-free kitchen so felt nicer. There was all writing on the walls, and you're encouraged to write on there, so I wrote my domain name in tippex. Is that a bit sad? This week was the first time I'd looked round Malaga, and didn't realise how beautiful it was. The cathedral is stunning, and I also went to the little Picasso museum, where he was born. There's a big Picasso musem opening soon, but it's not there yet. Oh, I went to the market and there were these gorgeous massive kakis which were so ripe they had to pack them in cones so they didn't get squashed. I also got some little cherimoyas, they taste very different to the big ones, and aren't grainy. They're the best but you rarely see them for sale. So ready to eat now get it in your mouth quick, they were. And I got some fab little avos. All this stuff was locally grown, and if not organic, was very close. So tasty and satisfying. I had a fruit frenzy which isn't like me. Ah, but now freezing UK with no lovely fruit. But there are things to be grateful for. I have a lovely (if slightly water-stained) home, and am off out to Pacha this weekend for a good old boogie. And I have a new hot water bottle, all covered in fluff. Lovely. OK, so that's about it for now, stay beautiful. xxx Saturday 30th November -- I feel much better now. I was tired from all that travelling and stuff, and upset about Fernando, but it's all for the best, and I feel that now, rather than wondering about it all the time. Wow. Relationships. Well, today is busy, and I so want to relax. Am putting the finishing touches to the book, and must tidy up, it kind of escaped me yesterday. Oh, I have no food in the house, so I need to go to the shops, too. Then I'm going out early tonight. It's funny going clubbing these days, I fall asleep at about 9.30 at home, which is lovely, but then dancing until 6am becomes a little strained! Aw, well, today will be a fab day. Right, I must go. have a beautiful day, whatever you're up to. Much love xxx. Next

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