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2002 -- May's snippets   Tis fiesta time. May the 1st was a public holiday. No doubt they were celebrating my Mum's birthday (Happy Birthday mum). Then on Thursday night Fernando designed and made a cross out of flowers, about 10 feet tall. Some streets every year enter flower-cross a competition and the street closes itself off to traffic and there are lots of tables with food and drink and music. A bit like the silver jubilee of Queenie in 1977, but this happens every year. The Spaniards know how to party. It also got all the women talking to each other, when the rest of the year they just gossip behind their backs. Anyway, Fernando's cross came 3rd so he won some money to share out in the street. 1st May -- Mum's birthday. Remembered and bought her more self help books. Joe does this, too. We buy people things that we want, and live bits of our lives through them! Well, it'll give me something to read when I go up to Hull for my cousin's wedding. 4th May -- Went to see Jatinder for a day this week, which was lovely as always. We went to the organic shop to stock up on greens. Got a bit carried away and spent €95. Well, I'm rebuilding! A few people have emailed me, concerned about my illness last month. Bless them, it's very sweet. But I'm really well now. Even Jatinder said I looked better this time than since I've been here. I wish I was the sort of person who didn't have to suffer to the extreme before taking action. Must change that. Anyway, the upshot is, I'm jut back to feeling fab. Am still not where I was with yoga, but it's happening. Poor legs, they did get a fright. Had lots of dreams last night about being on a boat. First my laptop fell off, then there was a shark floating up the stairs chasing people, then there was an insect fish made of air. All very odd. Might have been the cherries Ferny and me were eating last night. Aw, we had a lovely time, eating strawbs and cherries. Well, I only had 2 strawbs as they weren't organic. I have got the most amazing nisparos (I don't know if that's how you write it). They're medlars to you English speaking people. They're bigger than any I've ever seen before, like pears. And they taste like papayas. They're defo organic, it's one of the local crops. yum. Anyway, am off to write 3 articles now. Later potato. 9th May -- I've just had 2 organic mangoes!!!! My first since being here (well, second, but the other is so distant in my brain I've forgotten about it). I feel all MANGOED UP!!! Floaty, feel chakras twirling. I know when I've been been mango'd Am so excited I can't breathe. Yes I can, I'm just being silly! Am getting on with my next book very well. Am now putting together all the bits I've written and stitching it up so it makes sense. Am very pleased, and grateful that this info is coming through me. Wow, what a thing to do. 12th May -- Wow, just watched a documentary about the Amazon, and there was a frog who gave birth to its babies through its back. They came out of holes in her skin! And they weren't tadpoles, they were little frogs. Then about 10 minutes later, all her old skin peels off, and floats to the top of the river, and she's all shiny and new for next time. Good way to avoid pregnancy stretchmarks! Am excited about going to England in 2 days. Need to get some durian, it's rather hellish sometimes without it. I'm not obsessed, just in love. Honest. But this time I'm leaving my computer here, coz I can't be arsed to carry it round with me (am in too many places), and I want a holiday, a real break from work. My only concern is that my Download Darling will go and do something irreversible. Hm. Think I'll do a backup tomorrow just to be on the safe side. He doesn't mean to download all this stuff on my machine, it's just that he can't read English, so when all these annoying pop-ups come up and say "Do you want to download this virus ridden sex video?" He clicks "OK". The amount of cleaning up I have to do on my computer these days. I can't imagine what to take with me to the UK -- it's so warm here during the days, but maybe I'll need a coat. How can I forget my country's weather so quickly? We went out for a nice meal last night. Didn't go out til after 10.30, like my bed time! For my starter I got a plate of oranges, just what I fancied. Then a salad which needed help. This place is quite posh, but there's so little fresh stuff on the menu, it's not easy for me to eat there. They don't even have avocados! Here, in Coin! The other day in Fuengirola, we went to Cafe Fresco, a lovely English-run cafe, who do lots of veggie/vegan food, different juices and lots of salads. I've been there twice now, Jatinder introduced me to it. Anyway, they do a fab raw salad for me -- guacamole, spinach, rocket, tomatoes, cukes, basil. Fab. I like a green thing going on. Can't stop eating green right now, and feel physically great for it. I made a tray of wheatgrass, and I keep snipping at that and chewing the grass, then spitting the pulp out. It feels like nectar. My body really knows what it wants. I also have been a bit celery crazy last week, as I had this lovely organic stuff. Sometimes you get a stalk in the middle where the celery has grown funny, it's lovely, like a creamy crunchy thing. Anyway. I'll stop that now. Just read "How to be good" By Nick Hornby this weekend. Joe left it here for me to read when he visited in November. Very good book, about a GP who has an affair, but thinks she deserves it as she's a GP and her husband is a grumpy git. Anyway, he goes to this vegan bloke, called GoodNews to get his back healed, and then GoodNews moves in with them. The drama that unfolds is mostly in the GPs head, a mixture of guilt and wanting a life. She depicts the life trap in which most people find themselves very well. I don't usually read a whole book in 2 days, so it shows I was impressed. 22nd May -- Just recovering from a great week in the UK. I flew to Luton this time, with EasyJet. It was a good flight, except the plane was new and the seats seemed to lean forward. I also noticed that their excess baggage costs weren't as excruciating as Go's, so wasn't too concerned at bringing a bit extra back with me. I got into Luton at about 3am, and got the bus to London. I was wandering about with my suitcase and must have looked like a bag lady as a cafe owner offered me a free drink! I was waiting for Chinatown to wake up -- wasn't desperate for a durian at all. At dead-on 10am, Chinatown woke up and I was first in the shop! I got 2 of the little spiny creatures, one ripe for the day, and the other a bit underripe. Then I went to visit Arun, who' gave up work last year to become a full-time art student. He's studying at a London Uni, and his halls of residence is like a giant baked bean can. They're all round on the outside, and wedge-shaped on the inside. Well, I ate my durian when I got there, and loved it, but it wasn't the best I've ever had. It turns out that the second one was beautiful, like white chocolate and strawberries. Wow. I had that one when I stayed with (Fresh) Karen and Pete for a couple of days. Luckily they'd just had an Orkos delivery so were already satiated. I wasn't really wanting to share my durian after being deprived for 4 months. Am glad I've got 2 more UK flights booked this summer. My fruit plate at the wedding   Anyway, had some business meetings, and went to Hull for Cousie Chris' wedding. He got married to Julie, and I'll do a special wedding web page for them. Julie reads my site a lot, and said I'm not to slag off the wedding. I said I wouldn't do that, and she said I seem to have a bit of an attitude on me whenever I mention Hull on my site. I hadn't noticed, personally. Maybe it was how she read it ;-) Well, the wedding was gorgeous -- the best one I've been to. They gave me the biggest plate of fruit in the world (see left). I decided not to ask for salad, as I was likely to get an "I'm on a diet" portion. And I'm not on a diet. Oh, when the waiters came up to the table, with the food they said "Who's the rawist?" -- new word that might catch on there!! The service was fab -- we sang that song "Dance then wherever you may be, I am the lord of the dance said he", and I can't get it out of my head. I was rather touched by it. My cousie Karen (yes, another Karen in my life!) read out a lovely piece for them, and would have got into RADA on the strength of it. I think she missed her vocation as a public speaker. Chris is a special cousin to me, I grew up with him and Karen and my sister, so we're closer than my other cousins. But we kind of don't keep in touch as often as would be nice -- I suppose we all get our own lives and move on, don't we! Anyway, when I was little, my mum used to ask me who do I want to marry. I'd always say Either my dad or Chris. Strange child, keep it in the family, why don't you. Well, looks like I've lost out -- my dad is still married to my mum, and I don't think it's legal for me to marry him anyway, and now Chris is married to Julie. I, on the other hand, am still very unmarried. I'd like to get married one day, for the nice dress and day but maybe that's not enough of a reason! I wound my Uncle Ray up at the wedding, saying that when I get married I'm just having fruit at the wedding as he knows how strongly I feel about dead animals. He said "Well, what about how I feel?". So then I couldn't resist "When I have kids, I'm not going to vaccinate or send them to school" He retorted "Oh, that's just going too far". Bless. I can't help winding people up sometimes, the reaction is so worth it. Not that I wasn't telling the truth -- no way would I vaccinate or send a child of mine to school, but it's not anyone else's business, is it?   This is Chris and Julie just after they'd got married. Don't they look lovely? Me and Chris in the pub during his final moments as a single man Mum, me and Dad Well, am back in Spain now. Missed the sun, though it was hotter than I remembered in the UK. Also missed Ferny, of course. I think he's worried now as I've got all romantic wedding ideas in my head. He sees no reason for us to get married. God. Men. What about the nice dress? Got a big crate of peaches yesterday -- wow, they are fab. They're so ripe and dribbly, just like juice in a hairy bag. Had 8 for my breakfast/dinner up on the terrace, and loved it. Of course, I'm also back with the smell of fly spray (like I can't tell they've sprayed it). I'm going to take it out of the cupboards tonight when everyone's asleep. Disgusting poisonous smell. Have been far too sociable today. Marianne from the UK rang me, then Jatinder (and we always talk for about an hour), then Dao came over with baby Yamuna, and we went round town (I think I was procrastinating about work!), then we met up with Sho, Laura and some of Sho's yoga class. Oh, and Sho said she'd do me a regular yoga class at her house! I'm thrilled with this, as I've been wanting to get a teacher again. Am absolutely thrilled. Am a bit out of shape (read flabby bottom) since my illness, as my muscles weren't relaxing as they should, but I'll soon sort that out. 25th May -- Apparently it's world meditation day today. So if everyone meditates together for good stuff, some good stuff will happen. Groovy. Will fit one in. Am just reading Conversations With God. I ordered the trilogy, and can't wait to read them all. They are quite fab. Must just write about Ferny for a sec. Sorry if I get soppy. We were having a chat yesterday about all the stuff he's recently been through with his business partners (ie ex brother and ex best friend) ripping him off. I couldn't believe how he is about it. There are so many little revengeful things he could have done, but hasn't, there are so many hateful things he could have said, but he didn't. He just walked away, and it's not like he's holding it in, he really truly doesn't have any hatred in him. I knew he was special. Aw. Anyway, he's now got a very sorted life, he works 3 days a week to earn enough to live, then he's selling web sites in his spare time. We're also going to get a little art business going, too. So he has 4 days a week to do what he wants -- I'm so proud of him not being a slave to the system any more. I'm so glad he sees more than most people. There, I've stopped now, you can stop saying "Yuck". Well, it's my web site, I can say these things if I want! 28th May -- Oh, this is the life. Just had my dinner hour upstairs. Finished Conversations With God last night and am now on Conversations With God Book Two. I have to say, I've never met anyone who thinks like I do until I read these books. Especially from the liberty point of view. So many people feel like they're prisoners, and they prison themselves, but *Go* says that we should experience and love everything and have no fear. I like these books! Hm. Something I've noticed since going back to organic food. I've slowly seen the real me coming back. Wow, looking back on what I've written over the first few months of this year is quite scary. I was becoming lost, tied up in a world where I didn't belong and didn't want to be. In hindsight, I'm very grateful that I got ill, as it forced me to get my act together and find real food, instead of that fake horrible stuff called "conventional". If you are what you eat, I want to be organic, not conventional! Anyway, am very glad that the peaceful, love-filled me is back, and not the grumpy thing of a few months ago. What do they put in that food to make people so negative -- that explains so much to me about how people are. I'd started to become of the "I can't" mentality, which I'd already fought for 30 years. Never again! Only the best for me from now on. I deserve it!! So do you. We all do. And the great thing about the abundance of nature, is that there's more than plenty to go round. Life's a gas. Next

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